Well... India challenges me emotionally this time... It questions my vision of people, value of life, destiny or karma, whatever one may believe in...
Is it 'cause I'm more sensitive to it? Is it the North India?
To be fair to India, Varanasi is a unique and challenging place. Because of its importance for Hindu and so many pilgrims, there are also a lot of beggars: crippled people without hands or feet, old widows who have no place anywhere, mentally ill who pretend to be sadhus, sadhus (wise men who renounced everything) themselves, children with their entangled hair and too big clothes... I have their hands sticking toward me all day long. Will a rupee or two make a difference? I can't feed them all... There is sooo many of them.
This feels like an intrusion. The impression extends to people on the street shouting at me constantly "hello, hello", asking hundreds of times where you are from, do you want a boat/ postcards/ offering flowers, come to my shop, etc. They don't take "no" for an answer...
The violence. Starting from invasive penetrating your ear honking, through people pushing without consideration for others, through parents slapping their children on the head when they wiggle, to finally a man beating a deaf and mute woman in my guest house (his wife? It doesn't matter the relationship) and a policemen hitting with a fist my rickshaw driver 'cause we couldn't agree on a price....
A Hindi man, when I told him about the 2 last events, responded: "M'am, doesn't it happen in your country as well?" Yes, I know it does. But it is not considered normal or acceptable...
To add to the list of horrors - yesterday I witnessed a scene: a man was waving a 2 rupees coin to a begging old woman. She, quite distrustfully, approached him. As she was stretching out her hand to get the coin, he put it back into his pocket and had a great laugh with his pal next to him...
I feel like prince Siddhartha (pre-Buddha) when he finally left the palace and was confronted with the misery of this world. He saw natural coarse of life: illness, ageing, death. I'm seeing what people do to people... It's shocking...
street dentist... what a horror!